Before I closed my brick and mortar shop, I had to take a long break from teaching, because all of those same frustrations were sucking all the fun out of it for me, which made it a drag for my students, too. I have no poker face, so every bit of puzzlement or irritation showed on my glass face, and the students definitely saw it. I like my new online format classes, though, because I get to share all the things I love, but I can take a breath and think about the best way to respond that clicks with a student, even high-maintenance one, in a way that I just couldn't do regularly in real life. They're happy, I'm happy, everyone wins. I feel the same way about posting tutorials and patterns, i get to share at a level I'm comfortable with.

Sort of related- I visited two different S&B groups in town in the last two days (they meet in the SAME coffee shop on two different nights, deja vu!). The difference in the attitudes of the members was night and day. One had mostly new, twitchy, low-self-esteem new knitters, the kind that look at my weird complex projects and get weirded out and clam up. The kind that drove me bonkers as students. The other had a variety of knitters, more independent minded, that looked at my wacky-looking knitted plaid and started to get excited and wonder how it worked, asked questions. Guess which tribe I'll be sticking with? (See Dudecraft's excellent “Tribes” post on Making+Meaning, perfect timing).

…But it is challenging, because it runs completely counter to my
nature!

I think a lot of us bloggers/teachers are the same way – self-taught, experimental, finding whatever works best for us personally, even if it's different from what the book says, or what the “expert” says… and I think a lot of the people taking the classes are the exact opposite, which is why they feel the need to take the class in the first place – to be taught the right way… not all, of course, because there are plenty of people who just want to learn something fun and new and play (“splash around in the pool”!)… But yeah, I just don't have enough of that teacher's patience that's needed with crafting – I have plenty of patience with showing/explaining something over and over, but NO patience with those wanting me to tell them exactly how to make their creative decisions, or needing to know which is right, when I've already said, “this is how I do it, and I know some people do it this way, and some do it this other way, so choose whatever you like best.”

I understand that our brains all work differently, and if one needs to feel like they are doing it the right way in order to enjoy it, ok, I can accept that… but I sure do admire you and Tara and all the other teachers who can handle that type of student better than I can!